09-11-2011, 11:59 AM
There is much said and written about the state you are in. To a Kabbalist it is called this state is called Galut or exile of the Shechina,it is common and is a good thing. without going into miles of explanation, you are right One is not born because of one’sown will.One does not live because of one’s own will and one does not die because of one’s will.
At the beginning or start of a spiritual path or the first desire to correct ourselves , we cannot sense or understand God. It appears or feels to us that He disregards us.
We begin to blame Him for ignoring us. We become angry and completely forget that the Creator wants us, to exactly the same extent that we want him or it,And this is where the feelings come from in the first place.
Until we realize that all of our desire for Him comes from the Creator Himself, The common soul, our existence,We will be angry. Its OK to be angry.Its a learning process. But I don't know if you find the answer in any organized religion, its something you must work out within yourself
At the beginning or start of a spiritual path or the first desire to correct ourselves , we cannot sense or understand God. It appears or feels to us that He disregards us.
We begin to blame Him for ignoring us. We become angry and completely forget that the Creator wants us, to exactly the same extent that we want him or it,And this is where the feelings come from in the first place.
Until we realize that all of our desire for Him comes from the Creator Himself, The common soul, our existence,We will be angry. Its OK to be angry.Its a learning process. But I don't know if you find the answer in any organized religion, its something you must work out within yourself